The Lost Tapes EP

by Ryan Amador

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All songs tracked on an iPhone

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released December 14, 2017

Produced by Wizard Daniel Weidlein

"Don't Open Your Eyes Yet" & "Saint of Love" written by Ryan Amador with Daniel Weidlein

"In The Light", "Settling/When I Awaken", "Kid", & "Come Back Around" written by Ryan Amador

Secret Snippet performed by Daniel Weidlein

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Track Name: In The Light
I feel safe in the light
I feel safe in the light
But I wish I didn’t need it

I feel safe in the light
I feel safe in the light
And I wish I didn’t need it

w/ harmony
Wonder the ways
Someone will hurt me
Someone will hurt me

Wonder the ways
Someone will hurt me
Someone will hurt me

I feel safe in the light
I feel safe in the light
But I wish I didn’t need it

I feel safe in the light
I feel safe in the light
And I wish I didn’t need it
Track Name: Don't Open Your Eyes Yet
Your ma will be up in a minute
Don’t look
Don’t look
It’s good, I swear
No don’t open your eyes yet
It’s a surprise
And we’re all waiting for you

Your pa’ll be up in a minute
Don’t look
Don’t look
They’re getting prepared
No, don’t open your eyes yet
It’s a surprise
And we’re all waiting for you to arrive
We’re all waiting for you to arrive
We’re all waiting for you

What will your hands be like?
What will you need?
What will you grip on?
How will you feed?

And when you’re older,
What will you wish for?
How will you comfort?

What will you make you laugh?
How will you laugh
What will light your fire?
And will it last?

And what will hurt you?
And keep you up at night?
I wish upon you

All your mother’s light
And your father’s faith
And his father’s pride
And her mother’s grace

Who’s looking down upon you
From beyond the clouds
Instilling you with all the joy
That one heart could allow

Your ma will be up in a minute
Don’t look
Don’t look
It’s good, I swear
No don’t open your eyes yet
It’s a surprise
And we’re all waiting for you

Your pa’ll be up in a minute
Don’t look
Don’t look
They’re getting prepared
Nah, don’t open your eyes yet
It’s a surprise
And we’re all waiting for you to arrive
We’re all waiting for you to arrive
We’re all waiting for you
Track Name: Settling/When I Awaken
I know that I’ll get through it
But I’m having a hard time
I’m back inside the room I once left
And now there’s nowhere left to hide
From my own mind

I’m settling back in
But I aint sure I’m one who likes
Settling

So for now I will pretend

//


When I awaken, I am vacant
Personless, a slug
A fungus, a canvas, a rug
Limbs upon bone and blood
Tissue and muscle sore
From the day before
A mindless body bag
That begs to stay at rest

Then suddenly in a short moment
That familiar survival ping,
Trained to associate with the lessons of my memory
Convinces me, abruptly
That I am a personality
Held accountable to a life
That I don’t have a chance to choose to be

LoyalTy to lists of responsibilTies
Become the map to a mirage of productTivity
A web of many hours that write up a story
That I remind myself each morning, and suddenly

And suddenly
The tasks begin
The friends march in
The options for breakfast breed the same indecision
My clothes are a fossil of predisposition
And like so many, money becomes my religion

The story of who I am
The one I’ve been taught
This path that I’m on
The parts that I bought
I follow it fiercely, I swallow it up
In the seconds through which I decide to wake up

In mere quick whips,
I relearn behaviors long associated with my ego
Voices and talents,
Ways I’ve learned or practiced throughout the years
Choices and habits,
Facts, doubts, and fears.
It all rushes back.
Like blood post-turnakit.
And right away I forget I forgot all of it ever at all

I become Ryan, the formed thing
The Crafted identity
Ryan. What people rely on.
Loyalty
Responsibility becomes my name.

Could I be a recluse on constant vacation?
Live in a cave or a subway station?
Decide to only survive the day I face

And what does that do the people I’m tied to?
Who’d worry and sooner decide for some kind of intervention
To tell me I’m wrong and they’re right
And despite all the science I’m not just a slug or a fungus or rug
I’m not just a body bag born from the mud
And I’d say that they’re wrong
I’d say it but still go along
I’d say it but still go along

I’d say it but still go along

//

I know that I’ll get through it
But I’m having a hard time
I’m back inside the room I once left
With all the clothes I’d left behind

But I’ll be fine
I’m settling back in
But I aint sure I’m one who likes
Settling

So for now I will pretend
Track Name: Saint of Love
in the open ocean
i fear no current
i’ve got your anchor in the sand

with the changing water
I taste no torment
saint of love
is in my bed

In the howling evenings
I hear no stranger
I’ve got your spirit in my space

With the leaves a’ whisperin’
there be no danger
Saint of love
for you I’ve prayed

I believe
You’re a saint if there ever was
When I’m in need
You give it all
You give it all
For us

And There be the love
There be the love

When the way gets weary
I see no distance
I’ve got your compass in my brain

I can tread the mountains
Cast down the heathens
Saint of love
For you I’ve prayed

I believe
You’re a saint if there ever was
When I’m in need
You give it all
You give it all
For us

And There be the love
There be the love

There be the love
There be the love
Track Name: Come Back Around
when nobody’s children can see passed their phones
and no ones turned on beyond free videos
when money’s more noticed than quality grown
brother, when will we come back around?

when marketing tells us to envy our peers
and all of our actions derive from our fears
when 9 million die out of hunger each year
brother, when will we come back around?

back down
back down
oh lord, why are we so lost here on the ground?
brother, when will we come back around…
when will we come back around…

when birds start to warn us the earth’s over-warmed
and hurricane’s gather more wind than ever before
when all of the angels have already flown
brother, when will we come back around?
if not then, when will we come back around?

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